Because I'm Smarter

BECAUSE I’M SMARTER:


I know exactly what I feel-
I know exactly what will happen-
no matter what I say.
And of course I'm getting tired;
pretending its okay.
pretending I'm fine.
pretending it will work.

And of course I'm getting tired.
thinking it's okay.
thinking I'm fine.
thinking it will work.

And then,
seeing how obvious,
I know I'll soon regret.

But still it doesn't matter.
I don't exactly have the heart
to stop.

Because tomorrow I'll be as
deluded, as happy,
as silly, as stupid,

as drunk
on the colours of your eyes.

And still inebriated,
I'll tell you another lie.

And then,
ignoring the obvious,
I'll just start it all again.

Him, Looking At Her

HIM, LOOKING AT HER.

She is subtle.

A face hidden behind an iPad;

Only silent eyes are left-

they speak:

-my world is here.

i choose here, i hide here,

i like here.

see it shines?

-my world is here.

pictures picture pictures

the river my news feed;

a status a raindrop;

-my world is here.

and we are the cloud:

condensing, condensing, collapsing

relaxing, relaxing, relapsing

-my world is here.

so send me a message  here

don’t look at me…they're watching

     send me a message

please.

-my world is here.

i choose here, i like here,

i hide here.

so why…

   

 ...why do i keep looking at you?

outside.

Song For The Skies

SONG FOR THE SKIES.

I would

I wish

I could

I must

I cannot.

Though, if not,

may I have only

this last glance?

Glimpses into dual starlight, twinkling

milky effervescence with

rings

Of infinite, sonorous brown, towards

deep black holes which 

cling,

         

To these imagined night skies,

          I utter my utter soft words

The sun in my closed eyes,

          I dream a dream of stars and hurt

Your skies have met my eyes.