Sunday 29 January 2012

Me Trying to Write I


Syllogisms (Working title, a work in progress)


A brilliant whirling zephyr of young females burs out of the rickety door, scattering the seeds and leaves with each gust of feet pounding onto the ground in turbulent motion. The jilting storm swirls in cyclonic rushes, showing the full destructive nature of it's fierce winds. The feisty breeze shows little indication of calm, if any at all. The storm ensues, traveling all around the buildings, soon tearing apart the innocent pupils with each hard breeze of gossip and each strong wind of heightened emotion. No one is safe. The boys watch in futility. The storm cannot be stopped once set in motion. They may only watch timidly as the ongoing zephyr traverse the once scenic and peaceful walkways of the learning institution. The young males, strangely, are more silent than the gender counterparts. The rough tough reprimands has succeeded in silencing their sneers and volatile vicious violence. It seems that the lions of the jungles that are the wild fields of soccer and rugby and the tough habitat of the basketball courts have been caged. Their ferocious primal roars have been worn down into meek, measly screams comparable to that of punitive mice, and their once strong gestures of muscular strength are nothing but low shoulders and heads being dropped straight to the ground in shame. All with their asses in the air.
The boys eyes glittered with restrained, held back tears, and watered at the prospect of being detained in fear. They crawl, now released from their cage. Their golden mane has faded into a dirty brown and slowly molts away. Each strands fall and dissipates in the tall thatch like grass of the rough and rugged floor of hot savannah that is the classroom. Their sharp fangs and acute canines, once sharpened so crisp and distinct are now shattered; their empty gums barely able cut through the air they breathe. The trail of wilted mane and broken teeth is soon blown away by the wind of passing feet and laughter. The news of the boys' defeat has spread with the same gusts that once blew on their shoulders and gave them encouragement. Only one boy remains in the classroom free of shame. Only he remains in the classroom. His bags are heavy, his arms are small. His mane is short, his teeth are smooth. His eyes are bleek , his legs thin.
He gives a gesture of thanks to the teacher, and walks out into the dreary sun. It's bright misery shines upon him. The melancholic rays tingle his skin. He looks up expecting a smile. He receive no such wretchedness, and continues to walk, for the day holds more for him than the annoyances of the sun.



Thursday 19 January 2012

It Gets Worse.

I sit in the classroom hopelessly lost and alone. No one can help me. No one wants too.
I think of all the teachers who will speak to me. All words that I will not understand.
And as I look around looking at my new classmates. For a moment I replace their faces with my old class. This offers a brief respire but later leads to bitter regret. I can't communicate with either parties. In rejecting all that has preceded my future, I have found that my future rejects me. My pride breaks and shatters.

Everyone else knows what they're doing. Everyone understands. Everyone but me.
To hold my hand up is suicide. Answering questions is impossible because I am encapsulated by fear. Fear of stigmatization and fear of being wrong. Having the wrong answer. Fear of being the ignorant fool I know myself to be. I displace the water from the pool of sorrow as I choke. My hands slap the water in a desperate attempt to flee, yet it only worsens the situation. I'm drowning.

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Why it gets worse:


  1. I suck at French
  2. The Debating trip is gone, no one else is going because it's too late
  3. Talking to my old friends feels like talking to strangers
  4. Talking to new friends takes time
  5. My writing is lacking, and so is my math.
Whatever, it all gets better in the end anyways.

Sunday 1 January 2012

The New Year Post

Happy New Year!

New friends! (I'm skipping a grade)

New grade! (I'm skipping a grade)

MORE MISERABLE WORK. (I'm skipping a grade)

I would just like to thank everyone who actually read this! You've boosted my petty self-esteem and even managed to fend off some existentialism crises by allowing me to think I'm important!

Normal posts should continue by Friday, though I'm not going to post as frequently ( my internet JUST came back, and I'm skipping a grade.)

P.S I still miss you Haadiya.
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