I Love You

"Is there any competition between us?"

Library.

Writing while we talk.

Book names at the Psychology and Philosophy section.

Yeah, I'm straight.

Still finding yourself?

Things Fall Apart.

Okay, I'll read it.

My favourite is The Catcher In The Rye.

How can Holden not be a phony?

Puppy dog cheeks.

Starry eyes.

You're a good writer.

Hmm... secluded aren't we?

In my dreams we held hands.

Yes only a dream.

I want to send her some books.

She's okay, just a lump in her stomach.

Is it cancerous?

Fuck. You're always right.

A cell dividing...

Infinity anyone?

I like Mr. Haggar.

I do soccer with him.

Good.

Hospital?

Can I visit?

That far?

Moonshine girl...

Nice picture?

Oh, a poem?

I sent some books...

Yeah!

Ngugi!

I miss you.

Hey, what do you believe in?

Atheist too?

Puppy dog cheeks...

Starry eyes...

Hair short...

In a dream of mine we held hands...

I was reading so much so we could talk.

The Colour Purple?

I have a journal.

I love your poetry.

Please don't die.

A cell dividing dividing...

It stopped.

Aabhilwe Modise.
Aabi.

I never got to tell you that I love you.
I was scared for some reason... Probably 'cause I'm an idiot.

"No you're not."

I was gonna visit.

"Tawanda?"

Puppy dog cheeks...

Starry eyes...

Tears?

I don't believe in God.

Still trying to find myself.

"Hey Aabi."

Join Facebook.

We're still young.

Cancer girl.

Platonic?

Biology.

Logic.

Existentialism.

Identity.

What are you reading right now?

Books.

Literature.

Art.

Creative Writing.

...

Hey.

Aabi?

I never did get to tell you.

And you'll never get to hear this.

Because you know... God not existing and everything.

That makes me feel worse of course.

I really am gonna read Things Fall Apart. 


And The Colour Purple. 


I hope you did get to listen to Pet Sounds...


"Good night my baby...
Sleep tight my baby..."

And I was hoping at some point me you and Simone could sing:

"Columnated ruins-

- Do-hooo-miiii-nooo"

Because of the high notes.

Hey. What a nice smile!

Laughter.

Hey.
Aabi?

I just wanted to say.

That the next time I write to you...

I'll use neater handwriting okay?

Wait.. no...

I mean, that too.

But damnit.

Aabi.

....

I really do.

I do.

I do.

...

I love you.

"Oh and Natasha, I haven't forgotten!"

This is me delivering on a promise... 4 months later. Here you go!

I have a music project that I should be doing right now...but I am not doing it right now because I'm busy writing something for my music teacher's daughter. She also happens to be one of the few people who make me looked stupid in primary school. I remember the first time she came into class in Std 4... Leigh had already tried to befriend her and I was amazed that she started her oral speaking topic even though she was new, and even though our teacher told her she really didn't have to. It was this strong work ethic that startled me time and time again... and of course she skipped Std 7, allowing me to attain the highest grade in both classes rather happily.

I eventually caught up to her when I skipped to Form 3, and we were both in the same grade again though not the same class. She is still, like her mother a music virtuoso and also a very smiley happy person.

But what is the greatest thing about my music teacher's daughter?

She reads my blog!

And actually asks about it and talks to me about it... Which brings me great joy.

FINALLY MY RIVAL BOWING DOWN TO ME! ASKING MY QUESTIONS ABOUT MY WORK MY ART! BWAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA!

Oh, guess I got carried away...

The freshest memory I have right now is thank to her, I managed to finally draw the stupid square-based pyramid in math using MS Logo. We had to use Trigonometry, Typing Skills, Pythagoras, General Intelligence... Eish... it sucked especially because of Mr.Laverick's fantastically funny though offensively self-esteem killing comments. Anyways, she really got irritated upon finding problems drawing it, though she pushed through it, and even stopped to help me through it. The only reason she didn't finish faster was because she bothered helping me.

You rarely see that kind of kindness with super intelligent focused people.

She , positive is able to find some kind of happiness in helping others and being focused enough to provide for herself.

Thank you Natasha. Because Geometry sucks.

Also, my music project... yes I have to get that done soon....

Maybe maths does bring people closer together...hahah nah... Trig is hell.